Fall is here...

Is it just me, or is there something relaxing and peaceful about Fall. In the Midwest it is something that we are happy to see... well I am anyway!!!

The color of the trees, the smell of that pumpkin pie and the hoodie weather, with a chilly night on the hay ride. Not to mention my favorite Holiday, Halloween!!!

There are not many things in life that compare to the time that you get from your family and close friends. Whether you go on a hayride with your little one for the first time, or your sipping hot cocoa by the fireplace after a family dinner. I know that I am looking forward to seeing my nephew Conner in his Halloween costum, if my sister could ever make up here mind on which one she is going to choose. I don't care but I am partial to the monkey custom that we saw when we were in Babies 'R' Us a few weeks ago. I know Conner does not care to much, only time will tell as he gets older if this will be his favorite season too!

Here are a few of my Fall picks, some things that I am liking, enjoy!!!

Nail Polish; Vintage Vixen Collection:

First Class Ticket

Bogie

Foxy

Yankee Candle:

Apple Cider

Cranberry Orange

Buttercream

Bath and Body Works:

Twilight Woods

Warn Vanilla Sugar

Sweet Cinnamon Pumpkin

Makeup: 

Maybelline- Enchanted Forest and Time for Wine

Maybelline- Falsies Mascara

Maybelline- Line Stiletto Ultimate Precision Liquid Liner

Maybelline- Dream Matte Mouse Foundation

Cover Girl- Smokey Shadow Blast Bronze Fire

Cover Girl- Eye Enhancers Golden Sunset

Books:

Safe Haven- Nicholas Sparks

Hush, Hush- Becca Fitzpatrick

Before I Fall- Lauren Oliver

Love

Oh no she's a shopper girl!

So today I went shopping, it was a bad thing to do. lol. I just bought some jeans and a few things to eat, though I saw a lot of stuff that I wanted, but I have to save that $$$ for my move in a few months... Over the last week however I have bought some things, so here is a review and my own personal opinion on these products. Enjoy:)

The first product we have here is the Nail Art Pen by Sally Hansen, in Black. I have been dying to try this product out, and I was very excited. However I was not sold on it at first. It came out very fast and a lot of the liqiud came out all at once, (your nails have to be completely dry when using this, if not you will fail). After playing around with it for awhile and doing a few different designs, I fell in love with this. This product ran about $6.99.

The next two are just simple eye liners by N.Y.C. I have Jet Black and In The Navy. What I love about these are they were so cheap, only $1.00. They are a good size and are a pencil that you have to sharpen. The only thing that I do not like about these, they smudge very easy and if the liner gets wet, it will run horribly. For the price though, I like.

The last is the Enchanted Forest quad by Maybelline. I love these colors and they are so pigmented. This runs about $6.99.


This was short, sweet and to the point. I am no make-up artist, but I have a new found love for playing with cosmetics, and I want to learn more!

China Galze

Okay, so I'm not the type of person to go out and buy one of the most expensive things, or be into fashion in general... it is just not me. However since stopping a very grows habit, biting my nails, I have been very interested in nail polish. My new obsessions China Glaze. I have no bad things to say about this product, and the colors are amazing! I only have a few, but there are many more to come.

The first is called Awakening, the second is Exceptionally Gifted and the last is  First Class Ticket.

I love these colors and the product has very good credibility. I purchased these at Sally's Beauty Supplies and they were $5 each.

Washington... Forks; no vampires here!

I realized that I have not posted anything about my trip to Washington a few weeks ago. Since then though, I have decided to make the move and move to Forks, Washington to live with my cousin.... here is how the came to be....
I left Lambert Airport in St.Louis about 7 a.m. to head to Salt Lake City, UT, which was my first layover. I had gotten maybe three hours of sleep and nothing to eat, I was so nervous. My mom cried and I wanted to run for my gate, so excited! Up in the air, I was so nervous, this was my very first time flying, now I am in love with it! All in all, the time up in the air was pretty relaxing, except the turbulence we hit going over Colorado! The thought of turbulence bringing down a huge Airbus plane, not really impossible, but everything was popping into my head. I have to calm myself. I was reading 'The Last Song' and listening to my Ipod. That seemed to work the best.... I had time to catch my breath in Salt Lake City, then it was onto Spokane, WA. From Spokane I headed to Seattle. I only saw a small part of the town, I was headed to the Kenmore Airport at Boeing Field. I plane I was on was a nine seater! AMAZING!!

 

 So after seeing this plane, Caravan; the excitement overcame me. I had to call my cousin Holly, who has a fascination with planes... I think she thought I had lost my mind. After having the best experience of my life flying over Seattle and landing in Port Angeles, I was so exhuasted. The view of Seattle from the Caravan, amazing!

Once in town Tina and her best friend Clarene took my to dinner at the place called Gordie's. One the way down highway 101, the scenery was so amazing, the best part was lake Creasent.

Love this lake!!!!! One of the largest in North America, one of the deepest as well!

Then finally after a long day of traveling, I was finally in Forks. You can clearly see how horrible and sleepy I look here. I was ready to crawl into bed, and I did sleep almost 10 hours that night. I did lose 2 hours on my time charge. Ex. 2:24 p.m. in St.Louis, 12:24p.m. in Forks.

My first full day there I was up at 6a.m., very rested and ready to see everything. For lunch Tina took my to a Lodge called Kalaloch, I finally got to see the ocean. For the first time in my life, I felt free. As corny as it sounds. I had no appetite though, but I managed to eat half a burger and a few fries. I was not in the mode for seafood. Which is all Washington is by the way!

The menu at the Lodge....

The view from the Lodge, what an amazing end to my first day, or so I thought. It wasn't quiet over yet.

The meet up was at Clarene's house and from there us ladies, including my new friend Katie headed down to Rialto Beach, near La Push. Just in time for sunset, it was amazing!!!

                                                                           Me.

The sunset at the beach, though I was freezing to death, it was well worth it! Here is a little secret. I had never been in the ocean, I ran from it at first, the girls were laughing at me.

The next few days were so crammed together but I saw so much. Meetings with Tina and seeing more of the area, meeting new people and making new friends. Eating a lot of food and seeing to much Twilight stuff for one person to see. No wonder the people of Forks want there privacy and respect. It's everywhere!!!! We went down to La Push, the tide was out, but all you could see was fog, It was freezing, but pretty cool. I went hiking and sight seeing. Everyone was taking turns with me, showing me around town. I feel in love with the people and the area. It is very secluded.

I felt at peace and free in this small corner of the world. I guess it is where fantasy meets reality for some people. For me, it was a small vacation that I needed to realize there is something more that I need to do with my life. I am in no way done with traveling, I was to see so much more, for now, Forks fed my hunger!

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A different mood...

I guess this morning and I just really mad and was writing out of my back, to say! I am off of work today and need to try to get some things done, so why not get my car fixed, so yea. It is taking forever and a lot of money, err! Why can't money just grow on tree's? Have you ever wondered that? I guess it would be impossible because then it would have no value.

Anyway, here are a few things that I have been involved in for awhile....

www.twloha.com
www.socialvibe.com
www.invisiblechildren.com

These are websites that have my heart. I know that I am just a random girl placed here on this earth, with one small little voice that has been fighting to be heard for awhile now. there are things that a lot of people do not know about me. granted, i am nothing specail at all, I have been threw a lot. I have tried to kill myself, not once, but twice. Once in 8th grade... Once while I was away at college... My friends only know about that once in 8th grade. not going into the story but I want to make my voice heard and I want to help people. I have been dealing with Depression since I can remember, that is why most of my poetry is dark and will make you cry. I go to a place where I just sit and re-read some of my work, and wonder. Where did this come from? Who am I? or Who is this person who wrote such horrible things? Very few people have read my writings, for my own reasons I will be very selective on what I put here on this page....

With Invisible Children, I was first brought into meeting with such people and learning about this cause when I was away at school. I went to a Christian College and almost two years, and I have some memories that I will never forget, floor meetings, mission trips, study groups at steak n sake, and playing in the 'Jordan'. I met some amazing people who helped me wth alot, though my battle with my faith and my depression were the real reasons why I left. The best thing that happened to me at Lincoln is I learned how big this world really is and all of the different people and events that happen, every day! My way of thinking was questioned and I was hit hard in the face that things are not always candy coated and perfect. Like the little youth group high school world I used to live in. I was introduced to Gary Haugan, one person who is doing something that he believes in, if only I have that kind of courage! I dedicated my life to missions, and here I am, sitting here in the middle of this cornfield, not doing a darn thing with my life! Oh well, maybe I will figure it out someday, I'm only 25. I still have time..


So that's what has been on my mind this afternoon, sorry if I come off depressing, that's just a part of who I am....

There's always gonna be another mountain...

The title says it all......

I have had the pleasure of living with my father the last couple of moths, but hell... I am done! My father and I are a lot alike, my worst fear growing up was this by the way! I want to be nothing like him! He's unreliable and depends on me for fare to much! I just cannot do it anymore! nor do I want to do it. So this week, I'm moving out! back in with my mama. I have to do what I feel is right. I don't want to be in that situation anymore with my dad. He was never there for me or my sister when we were younger. I am a product of early childhood divorce. My sister, now married with the most amazing baby ever, has nothing to do with him! I did not want to be like her, but I fear that's what is going to have to happen. I have to move on.. things will get better, they usually do for me!

On another note, my car is getting fixed today, finally!!! I have loved driving my step dads car, lol!


Well this is just a rant of mine, nothing really to say other than hate on my father. I do not hate him though, but he annoys me so much!

Peace.

My goodness/ Irish Day!!

Well it has been a few months since I posted, crazy. So anyway, i started my youtube page, pretty much I am just doing random things and making fun of myself. Why you ask? Because I can and I really do not care! Hahaaa, excuse my attitude... that's just me!

I am so sick, I have been this whole last, like four days, almost a week. I have this cough and it is really annoying. I can't sleep and if I do I have to sleep sitting up. I haven't been to the doctor so thats why I think I'm not better. I have this fear of the doctor, well of my doctor. He's my family doctor and he loves to just push me away, well he's not the one pushing. I am not in a hurry to hear what's wrong with me! A couple of years ago I had a scary thing happen and ever since then I have been scared to check up on my health. You know, maybe if I don't know, it won't hurt me. If only it worked that way! I am getting better though, it has to just run it's course. Cough drops and nighttime cough syrup are my besties right now.


Okay, so my cousin Holly was home over this last week. She is so freaking fun! She lives down in Georgia with her hubby and she comes up a few times a year. We all miss her sooo much! Well we went out, us and two of her friends. OMG! We went down to the landing. If your from St.Louis you know what I'm talking about. At the Drunken Fish us ladies had a fish bowl, that is 64oz. of amazingness! After that we walked back across town it seemed to the car, in heels, in the rain! We came back across the river and hit a few local bars. I experienced my first Drag Show! It was awsome! A night that I am never going to forget! I promise you that. Though I didnt get to say goodbye to Holly after that night, I will see her again in a few months! I know she looks forward to coming home whenever she get's the chance!


So yesterday was St.Patrick's day. I am Irish on both side of my family. Hence the red hair and pale skin. Oh and by the way, I have tried and tried to get rid of my red hair, it just will not go away, no bleach or hair color will ever work for me! That's just a side note for you all. I had my corned beef and cabbage, for the first time. Pretty amazing too! I worked last night so there was no drinking of the ale. I was fetive and wore my green and my lite up shamrock earrings, lol!



So this was just alot of randomness today but oh well.....